Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I got a JoB! Finally!

So, I have been trying to find a job that will include my educational background as well as my personal strengths. It has been a battle for me. But, today I was hired for a job that I feel will be just that. It a rehabilitation for teenage girls with behavior issues. It not drug rehab, but more a last chance before jail. I am excited because these are girls that want to change their lives. I have been trying to get a job like this forever. This will help me see what it like in Social Work, and help me see if this is really what I want to do when I go to grad school. Any ways I'm really happy that thing are working out.

Monday, November 1, 2010

When times are tough


So I have been looking for a job for the past month, and it has been a lot harder then I am used to. It rattles me to the core and there is HUGE part of me that would quit looking. But I need to keep perspective, and just like everything else stay positive. I know that everything will work out, I am not the kind of person that just sits on the side-lines either. So there have been some ups and some downs, and I think that it would be good and more honest to list both. So I think I want to end on the high note.
I think the hardest part of not having a job is when I get my hopes up and think that I will get a job and then I am let down. The feeling is similar to going on a date feeling that there is something there, maybe even kissing the guy and feeling good about everything. Only to end the date and a week later wonder what happened?! It hurts, and takes some soul searching to realize that yes, I am not perfect, but neither is anyone else. I bruises the pride, and in the case of employment I think it is far worse because our livelihood depends on working.
That attitude is wrong though. We call all improve our resume, and how we look, and it's not like I have never applied for a job and not gotten it before. The difference now is that I want it so much more. So, to flip the coin and see the good things about being unemployed. First and most important I can spend time with my Andrew. I love him, and our relationship has grown extensively. Especially, because when we were first married I was working fifty plus hours a day. Now he's working, and I am not.
I have had more time to serve others. That is a great one because I love serving more then anything else! I feel like I am growing as a person, and I am owning the life that I live ( and that is important) because everything in my life has been a choice. In the end what I know is that I love my family, and know that is what is most important, and thing will all work out.